this one is about the difference between growth and self-sacrifice, and why we were taught to confuse the two.
i came on live almost at midnight, half expecting no one to show, still wired from a 2am online spanish exam the night before for my master’s application at a university in spain.
this live spirals through themes the way they always do: a jack canfield training i overpaid for years ago, the actual mechanics of the spain visa backdoor, kali yuga and the golden era we’re supposedly moving toward, what it means to build your safety on rock instead of sand, and why a quiet stretch on substack isn’t proof you’re doing something wrong.
a few threads worth tracking
the jack canfield lesson — if you’re not a little scared, you’re probably not dreaming big enough. the difference between healthy stretch and self-sacrifice, and why we were taught the second one instead of the first. [~0:00]
the visa backdoor — how “let’s move to spain” turned into an unexpected second master’s, a 2am online exam taken in spanish i barely speak, and why sometimes the plan finds you sideways. [~3:00]
the golden era — kali yuga, the great unraveling since covid, and why the world looking more chaotic right now might actually be the sign we’re closer to waking up, not further from it. [~9:00]
becoming a lighthouse — you can’t be a lighthouse for anyone else until you’ve built yours on rock instead of sand. what it means to get safe in your own body before you try to hold space for others. [~15:30]
the engagement lull — sitting with the fear that a quiet stretch on substack means i’m doing it wrong, and choosing instead to believe it has nothing to do with me at all. keep doing you, your people will find you. [~19:45]
the mask underneath the mask — what i’ve noticed dating again: how many of us are operating from an egoic performance instead of the centered place underneath it, and the ongoing work of asking what’s actually driving me versus what’s just an old wound talking. [~21:00]
sit with this
where in your life are you choosing cold comfort over the discomfort of real growth?
if the chaos around you right now is actually a sign of waking up, not falling apart, what changes about how you’re relating to it?
what would it look like to build your safety on your own rock, instead of waiting for someone else’s?
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