thanks, james. i know you have been on a similar journey of self-love. we are all works in progress. learning to fill that aching hole with our own divine love.
I recently needed a reminder to pull my energy back in a connection that is really beautiful, but was feeling the strain of my anxiety (that I thought I had figured out by now 🤣🙈) and I think how deep that conditioning for women goes, to put relationships at the centre of our lives, instead of ourselves, really goes.
Also, you are absolutely that woman you’re searching for 🔥🔥🔥
awww, thanks ania. yes, i agree we do we have a special challenge as women to hold our center and not abandon ourselves as we have been trained to do our whole lives. so glad we are healing this together! 💞
haha, easier said than done! i’ve got so much venus influence in my chart. it’s a work in progress! thanks for reading! so you don’t feel so alone in your struggles to navigate intimacy! you should write about it all here! and my other post is the one where i want to compare notes with you. for example you mention tiamat which i know is the babalonian creation story. i heard and felt the great mother speak this word to me in the shower one time. and then i had to hunt for a word that sounded like what i had received.
And hey i forgot also to say that im horrified by reading what you and your daughter have been through. Sending prayers for healing and light your way🦋✨
I have been so lucky and never experienced sexual abuse, but still im struggling with what i strongly suspect is a complex ptsd, from childhood…
And i feel a nerve when you mention tiamat. I recently learned about that, through channels that my boyfriend (now ex😭💔) follows.
But i havent heard of the babilonian story, who are they?
thank you my love. the babalonian creation story mentions tiamat as the primordial ocean. she came to me that way and told me her name was tiamat. one of my first giant downloads in the shower. i felt this oceanic force wash through my body and i asked, what is your name and then she threw each syllable into my body as a force of energy and i spelled it out after it was like teeee - aaaaaaah - me - ahtttt.
Og my god are u kidding??? You got the name tiamat just like.. from yourself(or above)???
Thats insane!!! And soooo coooool! Goosebums here!!!!
Well, he or we, have heard about it through channels like «cosmic agency» which is a YouTube channel, where this polish lady called goshia actually communicates directely through internet with a team of pleiadeans, that are stations on some ship near earth. The earlier videos she has posted is potent with autenthic information, but last year, they(goshia and her fellows) found out that the team rhey had been communicating with for over several years had been gradually infiltrated and manupilated by entities that were not bearers of the highest of light. So the videos from after 2024/2025 is to be seen with that in mind
You can feel the vibe slowly shifting
But the info regarding tiamat cane early, when you can feel it is authentic
Other places that talk about tiamat is f ex channels like «astral lara» and psycic medium adrianna garay
no worries! when you feel the urge. and only then! i’m sorry things are so hard right now! sending so much love and comfort for all that you are navigating.
also, my recent live session unpacks most of what i wrote about. you can listen instead if that’s easier (not great visual with the connection that day) whenever you feel like it.
or do none of the above! maybe one day we just chat about these things instead! love you!! 🥰
“Maybe I am becoming her. Maybe that’s the terrifying part.”
This piece holds so much: aging, desire, grief, survivor fear, and the strange ache of being wanted after a life that taught the body to brace.
There is something powerful here about becoming the woman you were searching for, even while still grieving, still healing, still learning what kind of love can stay without consuming you.
thank you dani. i know you know what it takes to heal. thank you for reading and seeing me in my (our) becoming. sending so much love to you on your own healing journey. ♥️
This was so beautiful and heartfelt , I felt like walking through your journey. I hope whatever the path you choose to walk on it will be filled with love, peace and tranquility. You are such a beautiful and confident woman with grace inside out, and always so open and honest about your life. I am sure whoever will be part of your life will be lucky, and whatever adventure you undertake will be a great one !
I really appreciate your candour, Venus. That one can live in the madness following childhood sexual abuse, it is particularly helpful to me, and also to be privy to how you really feel, and what parts of your life are like as an aging, beautiful, aspiring and inspiring spiritual woman. There is so much one could say but I really appreciate you, 🙏 and I send you my love, 🩷 my thoughts and my prayers, imagining a beautiful encounter for you and your life going forward. May your self-love also further blossom 🌸 and grow 🪴 and grow! 🌴
what a beautiful and heartfelt comment. i really appreciate it so much, and all your loving thoughts and prayers. such a special thing to receive a comment like this! hope all is well in your world as well! 💗
this was amazing. you truly are trying to pick the right road which is never easy. I pray you will find your way and it will lead to joy and fulfillment. oh and age is just a number, take that one right out of the equation! 🧡🧡🧡
thanks, james. i know you have been on a similar journey of self-love. we are all works in progress. learning to fill that aching hole with our own divine love.
I see absolutely nothing wrong with a woman being in a relationship with a younger man. Love knows no age.
that’s true. and thank you so much sattie for your support and loving kindness you pour forth here. i really appreciate you! ✨♥️✨
You're welcome Venus 😊 Keep shining ✨️
I feel your pain and feel the hope and tenderness. I hope life turns round and brings you joy, these first shoots are so hopeful
thank you, nat. i really appreciate your love and support here. may we all be filled with the hope of life’s tender new shoots of growth. 💞
I am honored to have read this. Thank you so much
well i am honored you chose to read it and leave such a lovely comment. thank you! 🙏
You wrote this so tenderly and beautifully Venus.
I recently needed a reminder to pull my energy back in a connection that is really beautiful, but was feeling the strain of my anxiety (that I thought I had figured out by now 🤣🙈) and I think how deep that conditioning for women goes, to put relationships at the centre of our lives, instead of ourselves, really goes.
Also, you are absolutely that woman you’re searching for 🔥🔥🔥
awww, thanks ania. yes, i agree we do we have a special challenge as women to hold our center and not abandon ourselves as we have been trained to do our whole lives. so glad we are healing this together! 💞
Thank you for sharing these pages of your diary. Snd please stop fighting aging. Honor your skin and wisdom snd lived life that the wrinkles tell🦋
And agism can be thrown out the window… be with each other and enjoy🍀💖✨
Love you sister💗
haha, easier said than done! i’ve got so much venus influence in my chart. it’s a work in progress! thanks for reading! so you don’t feel so alone in your struggles to navigate intimacy! you should write about it all here! and my other post is the one where i want to compare notes with you. for example you mention tiamat which i know is the babalonian creation story. i heard and felt the great mother speak this word to me in the shower one time. and then i had to hunt for a word that sounded like what i had received.
Oh wow
And hey i forgot also to say that im horrified by reading what you and your daughter have been through. Sending prayers for healing and light your way🦋✨
I have been so lucky and never experienced sexual abuse, but still im struggling with what i strongly suspect is a complex ptsd, from childhood…
And i feel a nerve when you mention tiamat. I recently learned about that, through channels that my boyfriend (now ex😭💔) follows.
But i havent heard of the babilonian story, who are they?
thank you my love. the babalonian creation story mentions tiamat as the primordial ocean. she came to me that way and told me her name was tiamat. one of my first giant downloads in the shower. i felt this oceanic force wash through my body and i asked, what is your name and then she threw each syllable into my body as a force of energy and i spelled it out after it was like teeee - aaaaaaah - me - ahtttt.
i am soooo curious what your ex said about it
Og my god are u kidding??? You got the name tiamat just like.. from yourself(or above)???
Thats insane!!! And soooo coooool! Goosebums here!!!!
Well, he or we, have heard about it through channels like «cosmic agency» which is a YouTube channel, where this polish lady called goshia actually communicates directely through internet with a team of pleiadeans, that are stations on some ship near earth. The earlier videos she has posted is potent with autenthic information, but last year, they(goshia and her fellows) found out that the team rhey had been communicating with for over several years had been gradually infiltrated and manupilated by entities that were not bearers of the highest of light. So the videos from after 2024/2025 is to be seen with that in mind
You can feel the vibe slowly shifting
But the info regarding tiamat cane early, when you can feel it is authentic
Other places that talk about tiamat is f ex channels like «astral lara» and psycic medium adrianna garay
And i look foreward to read the other post as well
.. just need to rest and cry a bit first… 😅💔😭
no worries! when you feel the urge. and only then! i’m sorry things are so hard right now! sending so much love and comfort for all that you are navigating.
also, my recent live session unpacks most of what i wrote about. you can listen instead if that’s easier (not great visual with the connection that day) whenever you feel like it.
or do none of the above! maybe one day we just chat about these things instead! love you!! 🥰
Thanks sister i love you💗✨
“Maybe I am becoming her. Maybe that’s the terrifying part.”
This piece holds so much: aging, desire, grief, survivor fear, and the strange ache of being wanted after a life that taught the body to brace.
There is something powerful here about becoming the woman you were searching for, even while still grieving, still healing, still learning what kind of love can stay without consuming you.
thank you dani. i know you know what it takes to heal. thank you for reading and seeing me in my (our) becoming. sending so much love to you on your own healing journey. ♥️
What a beautiful and heartfelt piece! Makes me feel less alone with my attachment wounds 🥹🩷 thank you 🙏
aww, thanks for reading. we are never alone, though it doesn’t ever feel that way! sending you love, sister! 💕
This was so beautiful and heartfelt , I felt like walking through your journey. I hope whatever the path you choose to walk on it will be filled with love, peace and tranquility. You are such a beautiful and confident woman with grace inside out, and always so open and honest about your life. I am sure whoever will be part of your life will be lucky, and whatever adventure you undertake will be a great one !
aww, i love this hopeful outlook. and thank you for always being so kind and gentle with me and my work! sending love! 💕
Thank you for writing 🫶
and thank you for being here and writing as well! i love that we are here to share and uplift together! 💗
I really appreciate your candour, Venus. That one can live in the madness following childhood sexual abuse, it is particularly helpful to me, and also to be privy to how you really feel, and what parts of your life are like as an aging, beautiful, aspiring and inspiring spiritual woman. There is so much one could say but I really appreciate you, 🙏 and I send you my love, 🩷 my thoughts and my prayers, imagining a beautiful encounter for you and your life going forward. May your self-love also further blossom 🌸 and grow 🪴 and grow! 🌴
what a beautiful and heartfelt comment. i really appreciate it so much, and all your loving thoughts and prayers. such a special thing to receive a comment like this! hope all is well in your world as well! 💗
Thank you, venus. I'm only giving what I wish for myself! 😍
this was amazing. you truly are trying to pick the right road which is never easy. I pray you will find your way and it will lead to joy and fulfillment. oh and age is just a number, take that one right out of the equation! 🧡🧡🧡