like blackbirds in flight

dreams and visits from beyond the veil

last week i dreamt of a male and a female dancer in long black sleeves. the dream zoomed in on their arms, moving in perfect unison, like flocks of blackbirds in flight, who move as one. when i woke, i felt the beauty of their unspoken, complete union as a longing in my own heart, a deep yearning for my soul partner, a closeness that has felt out of reach since finn died.

tonight, floating in the dark hot tub alone under the stars at midnight, i asked finn if he had anything to say, since a few nights ago he had given me three clear words. but this time my doubt in the channel distracted me, as it sometimes does. so i only half-asked and then let myself float.

that’s when the night erupted. sirens in the distance. dogs and coyotes answering in chorus. a dry lightning storm flickering across the horizon. the sirens felt like an alarm through the veil, a signal that something unseen was pressing through. i felt the need to pay attention. and when the animals joined in, it was as if the whole living world was echoing back, amplifying the message from spirit into sound.

then came finn’s voice, playful and clear:

“buckle up, buttercup. this ride’s about to get freaky!” i knew instantly it must be him, because i would never in a million years think to say something like that.

just before i climbed out, after nearly an hour of soaking, i was sitting in the middle of the tub when my arms floated up in front of me of their own accord. i could feel i was being moved, not initiating. they moved in circles and figure eights, gentle and in unison. and then i realized it was the arms of the dancers my dream had shown me too. that’s when i knew. the dancers weren’t two people at all. they were me and my own soul, my own divine masculine and feminine sides, my spirit and body, moving together in union.

in this union finn finds me too.

and that’s when i finally remembered, we have always been the ones we were waiting for.

i am curious, what dreams do you have that tickle your soul into remembering this truth, or other truths that only you carry?

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